Ups and downs

Updated: Nov 4

"Happiness can be found even in the darkest times, if one only remembers to turn on the light" -Albus Dumbledore

Today I’ve been a little up and down. I have a lot of stuff on my plate. I'm trying to figure out which way is up. Instead, I’m going through the ugly emotions. The feelings of neediness, insecurity and sadness.

I’m feeling a slight needy, like I need validation and questions answered. Is this blogging thing the right path? Am I just embarrassing myself? Should go back to my old "lifestyle" because it was easier and more comfortable. Minus the alcohol abuse.

I am at a turning point in my growth and I’m facing a lot of uncertainty. That makes me very insecure. I feel like I’m running in my world but I haven’t mastered the walk yet.

I realize there are better things coming. I’m just a little nervous. Maybe tonight when I’m meditating I will call on the universe for some answers. I know everything’s going to be all right. I'm just having a hard moment. Tomorrow is another day. These are the difficulties of mental health.

Much love,


P.S. Yes I quoted Harry Potter...sue me.


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