I have seemed to step away from talking about my current run-ins with mental health. The trials and tribulations of my illness.
I’ve been without my Abilify for about a week now and I’m going through the effects of it. I’m irritable, my mood has been fluctuating, and my harmful intrusive thoughts are returning. I just can’t kick the gut feeling.
Although I’ve called every other day, I haven't been able to get hold of my doctors. I’ve left messages, talked to the receptionist who told me she would return my call. I haven’t heard from anyone.
My care facility hasn’t been up to par in a long time and it's unacceptable. Usually, I’d show up and ask to talk to someone in person. I can be rather upfront about my care when I need to be. I understand the pandemic has put us all in critical positions but being out of meds despite my attempts to get them is repugnant.
Another concern I have is that my ability to hyper-focus has returned. I’ve been fixating on expanding my online community through my Facebook group and blog. It's been causing me to neglect the outside world. I don’t feel like it is inappropriate while we are stuck inside, I can see it being an issue later.
How do we maintain our mental health when we run out of meds? It is hard but doable. I think keeping busy is a huge key. Journaling about our experiences is also helpful because we look back at them when we feel better. Deep breathing when we are overwhelmed is another excellent skill.